Little Big Man

(for Samuel Leon Anstie)

This fragile earth, on which we so depend
is strewn with evidence that life portends
a choreography of happenstance.
Your shoes were made for your own special dance.

Then you appeared and shone the warmest light;
became the star that lights our empty night
with hope and joy, but nature’s wayward rhyme
decided you’d arrived before your time.

Now you are held in safe and powerful hands
and, even after rock is ground to sand,
the echoes of your brave, brave heart are free
to resonate for all eternity

… carrying all our love, our grief, our pain
until we hold you in our arms again.

© 2015 John Anstie

[Samuel Leon Anstie, my third grandson, was born prematurely at 24 weeks gestation, on Sunday, 14th June 2015; lived to fight for his life – and he was a fighter – until his little big heart ran out of strength, in the early hours of Friday, 10th July 2015. We mourn his loss more than if he had lived to ripe old age having contributed to the wellbeing of this world, as he surely would have done; all the more so because, if we, his grandparents feel like this, then my son and his wife will feel it with so much greater magnitude …]

Advertisements

About PoetJanstie

As a young man, John was fit and sporting. Playing Rugby Union for over twenty years, encouraged in the early days by a school that was run on the same lines as Gordonstoun, giving shape and discipline to a sometimes precarious early life. This fitness was enhanced by working part time jobs in farming, as a leather factory packer and security guard, but probably not helped, for a short time, by selling ice cream! His professional working life was spent as a Metallurgical Engineer, Marketing Manager, Export Sales Manager, Implementation Manager and Managing Director of his own company. Thirty five years spent, apparently in a creative desert, raising a family and pursuing a career, probably enriched his experience, because his renaissance, on retirement, realised a hidden creative talent as a blogger and poet. He also enjoys music, with a piano and a forty-five year old Yamaha FG140 acoustic guitar. He sings bass in three singing groups: as a founding member of a mixed voice chamber choir, Fox Valley Voices; a member of one of the top barbershop choruses in the UK, Hallmark of Harmony (the Sheffield Barbershop Harmony Club) and a mixed barbershop quartet, Needle & Fred. He is also a would be (once upon a time) photographer with drawers full of his own history, and an occasional, but lapsed 'film' maker. In his other life, he doubles as a Husband, Father, Grandfather, Brother, Uncle, Cousin, Friend and Family man. What he writes is autobiographical and very often pins his colours to the mast. In 2013, he completed an anthology of the poetry (including his own) of an international group of nine poets, who met on Twitter. He produced, edited and steered the product of this work, "Petrichor Rising", to publication by Aquillrelle.
This entry was posted in children, family, Love, melancholy, poetry, Religious, sadness and tagged , , , . Bookmark the permalink.

8 Responses to Little Big Man

  1. So full of love this tribute is. A grandmother myself, I can fully relate to your emotions .

    Like

  2. LadyBlueRose's Thoughts Into Words says:

    I was wandering tonight and saw your light on so to speak for some reason…
    I have no words that would make sense and I won’t pretend to know what you feel…
    just know my thoughts and prayers are on the wind and a Belated condolences to you and your family….
    Take Care…you Matter…
    Blessings
    maryrose

    Liked by 1 person

  3. eden baylee says:

    I wish I could see through my tears to type this … no words ….

    Sending love and light to you and your family,

    xoxoxo
    eden

    Liked by 1 person

  4. My heart hurts for you and your family. Your tribute is really lovely and personal. I was moved by it greatly

    Liked by 1 person

  5. Jamie Dedes says:

    John, this is such a heartbreak. How dear of you to write to him like this. Still holding you and yours in heart and prayer.
    Warmly,
    Jamie

    Liked by 1 person

  6. Jo-Anne Teal says:

    Dear John, I’m so sorry for your family’s pain. You words are dear and heartbreaking and speak to all of us as well as to this tiny boy who would have been so very proud to know you were his grandfather.

    Liked by 1 person

Don't leave without letting me know your feelings...

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s